we do not know why but we keep searching for a reason

done with 2 papers, with 3 on the go
kinda bored trying to sit down to concentrate. lack of motivation, short attention spans.

2 more weeks of exam *phew*

Sometimes, you just lose touch of composing an entry. you would rather spend time bumming around doing nothing or just simply pig-ging.
tomorrow will mark as the last day of mid-term break. it feels very much like just a weekend.
works are still piling up high like mountains.
dont ask me what i did during the whole week. i can't really answer you. time just seems to pass so quickly. can't complete a single task properly and yet, didn't really sleep much. eyebags seem to be permanent residents now.

i wish for longer holidays. cash flows would be good too.
and i'm thinking of a little piggy bank :p

-secret mission-

i need to lose the couple of pounds i gained lately; making me looking 4 months pregnant.
trust me, there is no baby in my tummy! or rather uterus for the matter of fact.
it's just ..mmm....the pounds i gained recently.
why why why?
please go away.
wanted to start my Project X yesterday but i couldn't resist the temptation of maltesers + super ring + blueberry cake for supper! there goes my Project X. FAILED!

so today, i thought..mmm...today might be a good start but i was so hungry during lunch bcoz i only ate biscuit and soya bean for breakfast (see, i've turned into a glutton), i finished the whole plate of nasi lemak with ayam masak merah. it was yummy. damn! FAILED!
even worse, shirley bought some chocs from uk. shit, i guess i have to delay Project X.
the worst thing is i dont have much time left because ball is in another 2 weeks time.
i need to be able to wear meileng's dress without holding my breathe or i will have to wrap myself with a towel. i'm desperate now.

please help me.
don't call me out for any activities that require pig-ging aka feasting!
i need all your co-operations.
thank you.

tomorrow will be marked as the beginning of Week8 of Semester 8.
In another couple of weeks, i will be done with Uni.
In fact, without realizing, i am actually done with my Biotech degree. Truthfully, i don't really know what have i learnt so far. every semester, i would just try to swallow whatever notes i have and then vomit everything out during the exams; leaving me with a piece of blank memory after the paper.

i know i will surely remember these 4 years of my life - all the oddest sleeping hours, the inhumane workloads, all the stresses and the painful mental tortures, and also all good memories i have with my mates - the hang-outs, the craps we talked about just to kill the time.
sometimes, i just couldn't imagine that i will be ready for work next year. it will be a major change. i will be moving on to another stage of life. instead of being supported financially by parents and family, i will be supporting myself and maybe my parents then. i will be having a new life then.

with the remaining few weeks of uni, i wish i could spend my time wisely because this might be the last semester or perhaps, the last chance that i will be studying and be a student although i dont really miss studying for exam during the weee hours. my eyebags are solid proof of me burning midnight oils. i know with the heavy loads and stressful schedule i have for another incoming couple of weeks, time will fly in a flash.

it's time to think of what i really want to do.

i am a sick worm.
i went to the doctor three times this month. i'm such a hero.
i even went to do x-ray this morning bcoz i was having very severe pain below my ribs probably due to the cough. it was my first time doing x-ray and i think it's kinda funny because i was supposed to 'hug' the 'image capture'. do i called it the 'image capture'? but anyway, i hugged it. apparently, that's how an x-ray is taken.

dont worry, i am fine. my lungs look pretty fine with slight thickening of bronchi bcoz of my cough. will be collecting my report on monday.

since i promise an update, here it is.
i am a person who doesnt like to break promises *wink*

the past 2 months had been great.
the last semester break was great. done a couple of things in my to-do list. the holiday was rather hectic because it was too short and it was my so-called 'last' semester break.
finally, i am in my final final semester now and of coz i am hoping very much to graduate soon. *finger crossed*
i still haven feel that i am in my final year now. perhaps, not yet a material for work yet but like i said, 4 years of uni is abit too long. i am losing my motivation and perhaps, i should say, i lost it already.

turned 22 last month. gosh...number is increasing and hopefully it is for good. birthday celebrations were great. i had 3 this year! i promise i am not greedy :S

i just realised that i made the same birthday wish for every birthday without fail. well, at least those years that i remembered of. it was a very simple wish. nothing fancy and nothing very big. i guess i will still continue the tradition of making the same humble wish in the coming few years. not that the wish didnt come true but i guess, i needed more time before i can make a conclusion to judge if my wish has finally come true.

gosh, i think i need more inspirations to continue writing.
i have been bumming around the house for 2 days. trying very hard to do my work and of coz, the progress is very slow. tortoise-speed.
am looking forward for merdeka eve plan.
i want a holiday. real holiday. :(

someone is missing me already... well, i guess my post. updates.
this is the first post in the last 2 months.

well, life is fine. good. but i haven got any inspirations to compose of anything yet.
be right back ok?
stay tune!

*continues m&m's-ing*

by Adam Sandler




[Billy Idol (Speaking):] Good afternoon everyone.
We're flying at 26,000 feet, moving
up to thirty thousand feet, and then we've got clear skies
all the way to Las Vegas, and right now we're bringing you some in-flight
entertainment. One of our first-class passengers would like to sing you a song
inspired by one of our coach passengers, and since we let our first-class
passengers do pretty much whatever they want, here he is

(Singing):
I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad
Carry you around when your arthritis is bad
All I wanna do is grow old with you

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches
Build you a fire if the furnace breaks
Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you

I'll miss you
Kiss you
Give you my coat when you are cold

Need you
Feed you
Even let ya hold the remote control

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink
Put you to bed if you've had too much to drink
I could be the man who grows old with you
I wanna grow old with you



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So sweet.....

i'm bored.
currently taking a break away from pharmacology. bluek.
worse still, gotta worry for genetics of development.
back-to-back papers.
please kill me.

yea, exactly 21 more days before i am a free woman again.
Have been sitting down for a few days to study but doesn't seem to progress much.

wish me luck.
give me more time.
on the other hand, i wish that this will be over soon. couldn't bear the thought of inhumane sleeping hours, the routine sitting down whole day and the incurable backache, shoulder ache.